Tracing the stars

"Kung papipiliin ka,
anong mas gusto mo,
yung isang bagay na gustong gusto mo? o yung kukumpleto sa kung anong meron ka na?"

That was the question that stunned me while I was talking to my boyfriend. He asked me this question upon remembering the play entitled "Kaharian ng Araw".

While I was thinking about it, I reflected my own life at it. Aiming for something that you really want could also mean sacrificing everything that you have. But aiming for something that could complete the missing gap in your puzzle.. I think that is something I could relate into.

The other day, I have this friend who says she does not know what she wants. I told her, "maybe you don't know what you want because it's still with you."

So I reflected about the things around me.

Literature, which I promised myself I would take when I go into college is my current course in school. My classmates, who's also book addicts as well as techies, and almost as weird as me are my friends. My family who I think my humor was derived from coped with me no matter how bad my mood swings have become because of pressures from school. The house I've been living with ever since I was born, the keeper of my books and my comfort zone is still with us.. everything just boils down to one thing.

As we were talking, I answered his question, what if the thing I want most is the thing that could complete what I already have?

That the thing I want most is him and he is all I need to complete everything that I have.

Yes, yes, some may think this is absurd. But ever since I was a kid, Ive asked for a someone whom I could share everything I like with. Someone who I could talk to everything with without him thinking I'm weird. Someone who treasures words and stories like I do. Someone who would write letters for me. Someone who would laugh at my silly jokes. Someone who would hold my sweaty hands. Someone who would build sand castles with me. Someone who also likes adventures. Someone who likes daydreaming. Someone who can create things with his hands. Someone who is eager to learn and does not give up. Someone who risks things. Someone who would plunge me after dancing and kiss me. Someone who goes online like there's no tomorrow.

Someone who can love me for what I am and say that I am perfect for him.

I thought it was all too much to ask.

Until the 22nd day of March, 2007 came.

Now it has been 7 months of pure love. Moments that became perfect memories have happened and is still waiting to happen.

In 4 days, I would be celebrating my birthday... and its the first birthday that I would be really happy because I'll be spending it with someone that I have been waiting for all my life.

Xxxholic: Everyone has its own fetish. You just dont know it yet.

There are indefinite things in this world unexplained.

No matter how weird it is,
Mankind will always be there,
Mankind will always observe life.
It will always be with
Mankind.

But it is the imagination.
But it is the past.

Person.
Mankind.
People.

People are the world's strangest creatures.